Okay....

Okay, So I'm on my way to work ( a temp job) walking on the side-walk. A homeless man asks me for some change, about ten do everday. I keep walking because I feel too guilty to say no I don't have a nice day. But how the hell can you have a nice day when you are living on a sidewalk. And by the way I did have a purse full of change. But that is my train fare for getting home.

I asked my mother once how do homeless people get homeless. She says hard times and sometimes bad choices. Both which I'm trying to avoid. Because the demands of bad decisions can cost you alot, so I've learned. She then say be grateful for what you have and strive to do the best because it can happen to you. I say never. She says never say never.

Ok never say never. Well how about saying ever. Like am i ever going to get out of this rut. I feel right now I'm so stuck. (didn't mean for that to rhyme) But I feel like nothing is really happening right now for me. All of my attempts to do XYZ don't work. And, blah blah blah. I'm done with this rant. I'm going to eat thats the one thing that I don't fail at!

My favorite season... Goodbye Summer

I love autumn. Its the most beautiful season. The orange, browns and reds the purpled sky sunsets, the weather, the new clothes, going back to school... LOL This is my first year that I won't be going back to school. It doesn't feel strange yet, it hasn't hit me. I think because the memories are vivid. Maybe in a few years I'll miss going back to school. I must admit of been nostalgic. But I'm going with the flow. I'm glad school is over.

Well back to the fall... It may seems backwards but, this season reminds me of renewal. Possibly because the new school year starts in the fall. However when this season approaches I feel a sense of newness, despite that in reality this the season when things began to die. I feel as if I get to start over. It truly is a beautiful season and I look forward to spending it in the DC area.

I appreaciated the summer, it was a good one. I had the oppuritunity to hang out with my friends, enjoy the dc scene and go to a few summer festicals. Although I enjoyed the summer I am glad its over.

Goodbye Summer

Where have I been?... FOCUS

Finding myself... LOL

Seriously, I have been trying to figure things out. For example, what the hell I'm going to do with my life. Things have been confusing since I've graduated, because there is so much to choose from. I had a general picture, but the more I go within the narrower the picture becomes. So it's becoming easier to focus on my goals.

What I've learned over the past few months is, sure its great to have so many goals but it wont mean much with out any focus. It wasn't until recently that I learned the importance of being focus. I am one of those people that get can come up with a million and one ideas but have a hard time coming up with a game plan. This has been a result of my lack of focus .

I've decided to take things a day at a time, shaping and molding my goals. But before I could do this I have to simply claim it!

(Me talking to myself):
Ugggggghhhh... that's the hard part. Getting to the core it's hard to claim something when you have doubts about how good you are or not. Why don't you think you're that good? 'Cuz I keep keep comparing myself to others. huh? There are so many great writers and artist, I'm just scared I won't amount them... Girl! It's not about them, you have to reach you potential!\

So that's my focus now, reaching my potential. I first goal is just to be the greastest artist I can be and the rest, well the rest will fall in line soon enough. I'm still so excited about the future. I will post some poetry soon, I have to copyright them.

I've claimed my greatness in addition to cultivating it.