A day in the life...

So I came up with an idea for a blog, which I think everyone should participate in. It's called the a day in the life. First you describe a typical day in your life. Then your describe an ideal typical day in your life. Afterwards think about why your aren't living the way you want to live...

A typical day...

Get up 6am, do 3 pages of free-form writing called morning pages (check out the book the Artist's Way by Julia Cameron) . Yes while I'm still in that morning fog. Just a stream of consciousness.

Then I pray, hop in the shower. Eat my breakfast usually some fruit and kashi cereal with rice milk. Get dressed off to work...

I temp as a receptionist at a university in MD. Blah. While at work I blog, read blogs, research anything that interest me, write poems, and work on this one woman show I've been writing. I'm at work for 8-5.

In the evenings, I do different things that include, yoga, volunteering with a youth performing arts non profit (I LOVE IT, KIDS ARE GREAT!) or I head to the studio and work on my music. Sometimes I go to an open mic, but I'm to scared to perform. I'm working on it, no really I am!

I go to bed around 11 or 12, I usually fall asleep to the TV, reruns of Sex and The City. Sometimes I fall asleep reading. But, yeah that's a day in the life...

My Ideal typical day in the life...

I would wake up with the sun or before it rises. Write my morning pages. Then do yoga. Eat a green smoothie all raw! Take a shower... Then off to work or to live my calling which is to create and assist heal. My ultimate goal is to use the arts and the earths resources to help people heal and to help women get back to their goddessness. I want to own a holistic/creativity wellness center... Ok so back to my ideal typical day I go work take off my shoes perform my calling. Eat an organic vegan lunch.

After performing my calling. I head home to spend time with myself with people I love. I have enough time in the day to do things I love and to enjoy the simple things in nature. Like the full moon over the ocean. Or the sunsetting. Being able to recognize different species of trees and hugging them to feel their energy. Being able to enjoy nature and other people. Yeah that's my typical weekday pre-family and having children...

I really don't want to live each day the same, behind a computer in an uncomfortable conservative suit, where I must tame my natural free hair to fit a professional standard. Im breaking out and getting free.

So how do I get there, I'm not exactly sure. As far as being an artist I'm writing all the time and channeling my creativity. I've been connecting with some producers and have been working on some music in the studio. I've been researching masters programs in herbal medicine and holistic health, I want a degree in both. But I also want my yoga teacher certification. I also want to become a doula and lactation consultant. So where do I start? That's the challenge, mapping it out .... I'm loving this journey and how the flower unfolds.

I don't believe there's a man in moon, all i see is the fullness of you...

Unfortunately my cycle is on the sun's time. Every 31 days, and I bleed. Always punctual, sometimes with a precursor of pain, depending on how well I have taken care of myself that month. Last month, I came on January 1st while in Disney World. The weeks prior I had not been kind to my womb. I drank, partied, was lax on my yoga practice and I ate vegetarian junk food. I surely paid the price. I woke with my womb crying out in pain. I felt so bad for treating her that way. I hadn't had a period like that since... high-school when i ate meat and didn't exercise.

That pain was a wake-up call. Calling me back to renewing my womb's health and my piece of mind. Not only had I neglected her physically, but emotionally. She's the center of my creativity and the heart of my sexuality. And well, I hadn't been creating much or nurturing her.

With that being said, the rest of January I made some changes. I began writing more poems not as much as I would have liked to... I have to start somewhere. I ate better, but was still eating dairy. I drank red raspberry leaf tea (a great healer for the womb). I didn't drink any alcohol. So when I began to bleed the first of this month, I noticed a huge difference. No pain. A little discomfort but not pain...

However, there are still some other things that are off that I will continue to work on. For example my mood swings. Yesterday I woke up feeling tired but I was determined to have a great day. I began feeling positive because the weather was nice. I felt really encouraged about life. I worked myself up into a high, while at work. I was elated. But, while on my drive home, my mood swung like a pendulum. The darkness was falling, it was getting colder and it began to drizzle. As did my eyes. I began thinking about all the things that are not stable in my life and I cried the entire way home. I couldn't understand how I went from feeling great to feeling like shit in a matter of minutes. But then again I am a cancer on her period. LOL

Later that evening, I went to Bikram Yoga (yoga done in a room heated up to 105 degrees) My muscles were too weak to stand in some of the poses. I laid down a lot of the standing series. Usually the heat doesn't bother me but last night it was all too much. When we moved into the floor series, I was able to perform much better, but still not to the best of my ability.

I left class drained, but relaxed, knowing what I need to work on for this next cycle. I've eating vegan the past few days and I will continue to do so. My weakness was indicator that I need more nutrient densed food especially ones with iron. I will drink 2 cups of red raspberry leaf tea instead of one. Go deeper in my meditation. And address this situation with a man I've been dating. We're in a grey area. I'm not sure if he cares or even wants to move forward, but it's plaguing me. This ambiguity is wearing on my womb, so much so that I've been having nightmares about the relationship.

Despite my wombs challenges, she womb is full, full of potential, hope and dreams. But before giving birth to my visions I have to make sure I have my prenatal health down! I'm going to take way better care of her. My goal is to get my cycle down to 28 days, on the moons time. I strive for a lighter, intuitive period. I have to much masculine energy going and I need to delve deeper into the feminine.

I don't believe there's a man in moon, all i see is the fullness of you... - Cree Summer