I don't believe there's a man in moon, all i see is the fullness of you...

Unfortunately my cycle is on the sun's time. Every 31 days, and I bleed. Always punctual, sometimes with a precursor of pain, depending on how well I have taken care of myself that month. Last month, I came on January 1st while in Disney World. The weeks prior I had not been kind to my womb. I drank, partied, was lax on my yoga practice and I ate vegetarian junk food. I surely paid the price. I woke with my womb crying out in pain. I felt so bad for treating her that way. I hadn't had a period like that since... high-school when i ate meat and didn't exercise.

That pain was a wake-up call. Calling me back to renewing my womb's health and my piece of mind. Not only had I neglected her physically, but emotionally. She's the center of my creativity and the heart of my sexuality. And well, I hadn't been creating much or nurturing her.

With that being said, the rest of January I made some changes. I began writing more poems not as much as I would have liked to... I have to start somewhere. I ate better, but was still eating dairy. I drank red raspberry leaf tea (a great healer for the womb). I didn't drink any alcohol. So when I began to bleed the first of this month, I noticed a huge difference. No pain. A little discomfort but not pain...

However, there are still some other things that are off that I will continue to work on. For example my mood swings. Yesterday I woke up feeling tired but I was determined to have a great day. I began feeling positive because the weather was nice. I felt really encouraged about life. I worked myself up into a high, while at work. I was elated. But, while on my drive home, my mood swung like a pendulum. The darkness was falling, it was getting colder and it began to drizzle. As did my eyes. I began thinking about all the things that are not stable in my life and I cried the entire way home. I couldn't understand how I went from feeling great to feeling like shit in a matter of minutes. But then again I am a cancer on her period. LOL

Later that evening, I went to Bikram Yoga (yoga done in a room heated up to 105 degrees) My muscles were too weak to stand in some of the poses. I laid down a lot of the standing series. Usually the heat doesn't bother me but last night it was all too much. When we moved into the floor series, I was able to perform much better, but still not to the best of my ability.

I left class drained, but relaxed, knowing what I need to work on for this next cycle. I've eating vegan the past few days and I will continue to do so. My weakness was indicator that I need more nutrient densed food especially ones with iron. I will drink 2 cups of red raspberry leaf tea instead of one. Go deeper in my meditation. And address this situation with a man I've been dating. We're in a grey area. I'm not sure if he cares or even wants to move forward, but it's plaguing me. This ambiguity is wearing on my womb, so much so that I've been having nightmares about the relationship.

Despite my wombs challenges, she womb is full, full of potential, hope and dreams. But before giving birth to my visions I have to make sure I have my prenatal health down! I'm going to take way better care of her. My goal is to get my cycle down to 28 days, on the moons time. I strive for a lighter, intuitive period. I have to much masculine energy going and I need to delve deeper into the feminine.

I don't believe there's a man in moon, all i see is the fullness of you... - Cree Summer